Reflection

I looked out the window
My reflection was dim 
I was unrecognizable 
My world began to spin 

A howl left my lips 
I gave my tears the freedom to flow 
The pain was acute 
Dimming my internal glow

The sorrow ran deep
so deep I couldn’t write 
I caught myself holding my breath 
because letting it out felt contrived 

The world feels so lonely without you 
I miss your luminous smile 
Your eyes too
they haven’t spoken to me in a while 

I looked out the window 
It was my reflection and I 
Maybe more wine would help with the pain 
And a few more pulls of the joint  can get me more high